been wanting to write but never did. had a few random thoughts to jot down but never did. sigh. so what have i been doing instead? i drive around a lot. home to school to work to a different school to home. everyday. i got ill after the first week as if my body was being broken and reshaped so it can endure similar routine for a few more weeks. i feel less stress now, things remain the same but i just complain less to myself because i told myself what is the freaking point. just live. God will take care of everything. every once in a while i beat myself of course, thinking that the kids deserve better – i should be more chirpy. but i have always been useless at acting.