Often times i think of how easy my life would be if I don’t wish for anything…I’d just cruise through life doing what is expected. Being content with where I am. But isn’t that equivalent to taking the easy way out? I can sugarcoat it by saying I surrender to God’s will and say what will be will be. But the most part of me won’t be convinced. The truth is, there are things that I wish to do – things that require effort, perseverance and time. I am not lazy. But I hate failing. I hate getting ‘no’ for an answer. The stupidly egotistical me wants every effort to yield result and everyone to say yes.. the overly critical me will literally pick every bone in my body looking for the root cause while taunting the experimental and bold me who dares me to go the extra mile. Sometimes i am tired from dealing with my own sel(ves).