A very close friend of mine disclosed to me recently that i used to show very little reaction to things. She, in a friendly spirit, also said that i used to care less about….people. I fully agree. I have always been very economic with my emotions and physical reactions.  In no way do i not feel; i just hide things well. It takes years for a person to program herself into being on a stealth mode continuously. It’s a coping mechanism, really. I hide things so i won’t have to deal with the outcome of showing people the extent of my emotions. I could shrug a disappointment and absorb a considerable amount of wrath. I could really hold my tongue while i talk to death in my mind.

So now i am trying to be more expressive and affectionate. I don’t go around hugging people or trees, just girl friends and family. If you see me smiling at you, it means i am genuinely happy to see u.  If i don’t, it could be that i just dropped one of my contact lenses while driving minutes before that and therefore walking around with partially blurry vision.


Published by: mizrae

I am not always nice, but I can be. I like reading more than writing, and I wish I write better than I do. I hope that I listen more than I speak because honestly, that's the kind of people I am drawn to.

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