A very good friend of mine said today that it is normal to be angry….occasionally. She was responding to me disclosing to her that i had to put on my contact lens while driving today. It popped out of my left eye after i dabbed on that eye a bit vigorously. Well, the truth is i did it because i was starting to cry.. after days of not doing so. I was driving the boys to school and all of a sudden i was just MAD. I think the moment lasted for a few seconds only before i told myself that being angry at him, at her, at them, is plain useless. It was then that i grabbed a tissue and the rest well u know already.
Now hours later, i think i can verbalize why i was mad. I was (am) mad because he had so many opportunities, chances, so much time to correct things but he chose not to. So i went from devastated to hopeful to indifferent.
For now indifference suits me well. Even if it is intermittent.