I have been calmer lately in dealing with things, specifically :his absence, questions about his absence and my own wild imagination. This does not mean that i do not hurt. I hurt, but he cant undo what he has done. To recover, i realize that i must have things to look forward to. It can be something tomorrow, next month or next year. It has to be something that benefits me either way; married or divorced. It has to be good for me as a person. I must not let his actions turn me into a bitter and revengeful bitch. Finding someone else is not my priority. Finding myself is.