It is cliche to say that time heals all kinds of pain, but you know what? I think it is also a simple fact. It has been exactly a month since he moved out. although this was the third time in the span of four months, it has also been the longest.
Today I feel less miserable, less lonely and less depressed. The pain and distance does not make me any less neglected and abandoned than I am, but I have to thank my faith, my friends and my family who has been so kind as to let me selfishly wallow in my darkest moments. I thank them for not knocking on my door when I feel like being alone (which is often these days) and for not saying anything to me when I don’t feel like speaking to anyone (which is also often).
Today I faced my bitterness and my anger direct in the eye. I walked past Chanel klcc and spent a full minute watching ridiculously expensive handbags which make most people happy. Striding past the boutique with my head held high, I can feel the 16 thousand ringgit worth of bitterness leaving me. I felt free.
My greatest achievement today: I lived today without anger, bitterness and envy.