i celebrated my 36th birthday yesterday. emotions soared and plummeted since friday night. now i feel deflated and ready to throw in the towel and announce my retirement from this particular pursuit of happiness. i think happiness is probably not in the horizon if insecurity and infidelity remain present. it has been too long, my heart broken over and over again plus i have heard enough …any idiot can see that the only way out for me is to let go.